Sassy's Tripawd Journey

Sassy,

Today Shari (Dakota’s mom, I am sure you have met him by now) has been visiting this weekend.  So in honor of your 10th month ampuversary we took Bosch to the dog park.  He met some nice friends one of them was a Tripawd who had been hit by a car.  Very nice boy.  I told his mom about this wonderful site.  Kinda made me a little sad that you weren’t here to play with him but I know you saw.  Bosch did good.    Bosch got to meet Shari and behaved himself.  I was really glad.

Then Shari & I went to the zoo and walked around.  In your honor after dinner we had DQ.  I thought about you.  Wish you were here to celebrate with us.  But doesn’t mean we didn’t know you were here in spirit.

Mom misses you my little sugars.

Hugs

mommy

Here is a picture of Shari & I at DQ (Thanks Shari for taking it 🙂  )

My dearest Sassy,

It has been 3 weeks since you crossed the Rainbow Bridge.  It still huts a lot.  The thing that makes me feel better is I know that you are in good company and are no longer in pain and CANCER FREE.  I know I am being selfish when i want you back but I still do.  I know it will get better with time.  Today I really miss you.  All the bad news around here I wish you were here so I could snuggle with you & feel your velvet ears again

Mommy loves you with all my heart

Mom

It is hard to believe its been almost 3 weeks since Sassy crossed the bridge.  I knew it was going to be tough but never thought this tough.  It seems to be getting better day by day.  I guess you would say I am moving along but still miss her.  Had a good cry fest in the chat last night.  Some days are better than others.

I shared a bunch of pictures of when Sassy was growing up.  Looking back a lot of memories all really good.  Made me smile but yet cry.  It just seems like it was all too short.  A friend told me today that when she looses one of her Greyhounds she thinks that someone else needed them more here on earth.  Maybe that is true but still I feel like its not fair.  But when is life ever fair?  So I am planning on posting some pictures here to help celebrate Sassy Sugar Bear life.

These are not in any special order I may go back and edit the gallery but I wanted to share this with everyone.

My Baby Sassy,

I went to pick up your ashes and bring them home.  I walked into the vet clinic and they asked how they could help me.  I just burst into tears.  I wanted to be brining you home living but I know that I did the right thing for you its still hard.  But I am so glad you are home with me now.  I still am having a rough time certain days but that is normal.  I think of you often.  I am trying to do a lot of things to keep Bosch company.  One of the hardest things is when Bosch sings and you aren’t there to join in and he runs looking for you.  I know you are singing with him at the bridge but he is just lost without you doing it here.

Thanks for coming into my life.  I enjoyed the time we had together and I love you and you will always be a part of my heart.  The biggest part.

Love

Mom

Today I was just looking through pictures.  I am a horrible person to take self portraits but I guess these are the best I could do.  Makes me really realize how much she loved me.  I mean I knew it but just reinforces it.  I was just messing around when we took these.

Thinking of you everyday Sugars.     So Bosch has been getting a lot of special attention.  He deserves it too.  I need to get some pictures of him too 🙂

Hugs

Michelle & Angel Sassy Sugar Bear

My dearest Sassy

I miss you.  It has been one week today since you crossed the bridge.  I know it takes time to heal and this really really sucks.  I know I did the right thing for you even though for me its tough.  I just had to say I missed you and think about you everyday.

Hugs

Mom

Wow, I don’t even know how to even start.   11 days ago we were at the vet her lungs sounded clear and they could hear her heart.  When we went in for our 10 day check up on the Leukeran for blood work up it had all changed.  Last week we got the culture results saying she had a bacteria & staph infection growing in her bladder.  So we started antibiotics on Friday the 16th.  That is the day she started panting hard.  I just figured it had to do with a little pain in her bladder.

We went in and sat a few minutes before Dr Boyer came in and when she did.  She saw how Sassy was breathing my heart sank.  I knew it wasn’t good. Dr Bpyer said we could do an xray to see where things were and possible chest tap to take the fluid off.  I didn’t want to put Sassy through that.  I kinda had that feeling yesterday.  I talked to Sassy during the day when I was working and she was laying on my bed.  I told her I wouldn’t let her suffer and if it was time she could go.  Even though my heart is in a million pieces right now I know I did the right thing.  I just miss her terribly.    She has fought 9 1/2 months since her amputation and 6 1/2 of those months she had mets.  She was tired.  I knew she would keep going for me.  I couldn’t let her.

Today (Wednesday) was so hard just to fix breakfast for 1 dog.  Bosch is lost without his sister.   I am lost without my heart.  I am trying so hard to keep it together right now.  Shari, Dakota’s mom said this was a bond that no one would understand unless they go through it.  She is so right.   I know it will take time to heal.  She will always have my heart.

Michelle & Angel Sassy 

Ok, I was told I cheated and used old pictures on my my blog post & I needed new ones so here they are

Wow another milestone.  Hard to believe that we have come this far.  So an update on what has been happening.  Sassy continues to have issues with the results from the Cytoxin.  Called sterile cystitis (problems peeing basically) basic symptoms of an UTI.  Dr Boyer said could take up to 6 weeks for all of this to be out of her system.  Blood work came back great from the first week on the Leukeran.  Retest on the 20th of August for the first month every week testing.  Had a slight mishap on Monday morning.  Sassy thought she saw something & went tearing out of the kennel into the yard & wiped out.  So she wasn’t moving as well as she should have been on Tuesday and breathing a little harder than normal.  (So you know me I freaked out).   Of course it has been more humid again in the afternoon so that can play apart in that too.  Lungs still sounded clear when we went to vet on Saturday.

So we are still hopping along one day at a time.  🙂    Sassy is a pure joy to be around the sweetest most even tempered dog.  My little nephew who is 1 (yesterday) crawls right up to her and climbs up hanging onto her and she just sits there and then gives him a kiss.  My niece who is 2 1/2 lays her blanket over Sassy and lays down next to her.

Guess i need to get some new pictures to add.  So above all else I want to thank everyone here for their support in our journey.  Sassy & I both love this community.  We have made some great friends and shared in some great news and some tragic news for others.  Thank you for being apart of our lives and keeping me sane.

I did forget to add that Taylor surprised me with a gift.  A wire scuplture of Sassy.  Even minus the right leg  🙂

Hugs

Michelle & Sassy

Everything is still going great.  Today is the first dose of the Chlorembucil (Leukeran).  We had to wait 48 hours to start the new drug from the last dose of the Cytoxin.  I know I shouldn’t be nervous but am a little bit.  I know we caught the reaction soon but I am hoping with keeping her on it every other day until we got the Leukeran it kept everything at bay.  Now I am hopeing all goes well with this one.   So far so good.  Its only been about 12 hours though LOL.

So this is just a short update.  🙂