Sassy's Tripawd Journey

Well, I can’t believe its been 7 months.  It seems like yesterday that her and Brendol left us.  I know that she is happy and just greeted Libby yesterday and is showing her the ropes.  I know as hard as it is for this part of the journey that many have endured it before us and sadly people are joining after us.  I sure wish that they would find a cure for our babies.

Thinking of you today my little Angel

hugs

Mom

I can’t believe these 2 silly monkies are 7 months old.  It doesn’t seem possible.  They were born one day before Sassy crossed the bridge so tomorrow marks that 7 months date for her.  Seems just like yesterday some days.   Happy thoughts today though.    I thought I would share some of the pictures I took for this special occasion.

Grace with Jazz

Bosch & Snickers

Bosch, Snickers & Jazz

The girls playing with Bosch

Snickers & Bosch

Snickers & Bosch

Jasmine

 Bosch & Girls

Snickers & Bosch

Snickers doing zoomies

Wow, it really is hard to believe that 16 months ago my baby girl joined the world as a Tripawd.  We proved many people wrong on our journey.  The major one thing that Sassy did was show that she could support her weight as a Tripawd.  Happy 16 month ampuversary Sassy.  You taught me many things that day.  How to persevere through the tough times and celebrate all the little things.  I know that you are watching down on all of our friends and also playing with all of the ones up on the Bridge with you.  I see the little signs that you send.

Hoppy Ampuversary baby girl.  I know you have all 4 back now but I still celebrate this as it made us stronger.

Hugs

Mom

sassy giving me kisses

Sassy today is a day I really miss you.  It has been a crappy couple of days at work & here at home.  I always used to turn to you when I needed someone to talk to.  Today my heart is just hurting I wish you were here to snuggle with.  Missing you like I always do my sweet Sugar Bear

This would be you while I worked.  I knew you were always close by.  Now I look there and all I see is empty space.  Today, I wish you were here so I could hug you.

Love,

Mom

Well today we all received some sad new about Happy Hannah and having mets.  I was thinking back and March 1st of 2013 is when Sassy was diagnosed with mets.  I know Hannah will put up a good fight and once Sally gets over being sick & in shock of this terrible disease they will continue on their fighting journey.  This freaking Cancer I HATE IT.  Why do our babies have to go through this.  Why do our friends have to feel this pain of losing their babies??? As I write this I am sitting here crying.  I wish among all things that cancer was gone.  It is evil, has no rules.  I feel like I am losing my Sassy all over again with Hannah.  I kinda put a lot of positive vibes toward Hannah when I lost Sassy as she is the one I sent her Apocaps to and Sally was always such a cheerleader for us.

I know that when the time comes Sassy will be there for Hannah.  It just makes me so angry right now that Sally is going through this.

Sally I know you will read this my thought & prayers are with you and my energy is with you too.  You will find the way to continue to fight.  I know once the shock wears off of this you will get up and say SCREW CANCER.  We are here for you no matter what.  We love you & Hannah.

so Sally shared some more pictures of Happy Hannah so I thought I would add them here too.  

and our eat more ice cream & chocolate YAY

Sassy & I are honored to share our Blog with Happy Hannah today

Michelle & Angel Sassy

Dear Sassy,

I can’t believe its been 6 months since you left and crossed the bridge.  I still miss you much today as I missed you that night you left.  It has gotten better but days like today make me really really miss you.  I know you are happy there and are watching over all of us.  I wish I would see you around more than the 1 time you came to be in a dream.  I know you left that dime from heaven usually its a penny but this was a dime that wasn’t there by my car when I went into the store and came out and there it was.

I wish I had a wonderful poem that I could write but I don’t have that in me or the right words for it.  But I did find this on Facebook and thought it fit so well so I am posting it here.  I also made this special video for you.  I know it fits too.  I tried to pick the songs that made me think of you.  So I will give everyone fair warning its a tissue grabber.

I can’t believe these 2 are 6 months old already.  We have had them 4 months.  Amazing.  Snickers the little ornery butt decided she was going to run yesterday.  So starting the 27th of Feb they both will be going to obedience school.  Other than taking her little jaunt they both are doing great.

Bosch is doing really well too.  He had surgery on the 14th and seems to be healing good.  Just have to keep him quiet for a little bit longer and the girls are not liking being kept away from him.

Snickers

Jazz

Happy 6 month birthday

Hugs

Mom

Happy 15th month ampuversary Sassy Sugar Bear my love.  Today is Valentines day & you are my Valentine.  We would have had a great celebration had we made it this far but its ok.  I know you aren’t in pain and are happy on the Bridge with your many friends playing right now.  I do miss you.  Bosch misses you too.  Thank you for watching over him today when he had his surgery I was worried about him but knew you would take care of him.

Thank you for also helping me with these 2 girls.  Snickers is becoming the cuddler.  Of course Jazz is too.  I know you have a hand in guiding them and I appreciate that.

Hugs and lots of snuggles baby

love mom

Today was a good day although sick from work someone had to take the girls & Bosch out to potty and it was the first real snow.  We have had a few inches here & there but not a lot.  I am so glad this brought back good memories of Sassy & Bosch playing as babies.  I thought I would share some videos of them playing

Snickers

Bosch

Snow flakes landing on camera lens

Snickers

Jasmine

Wish Sassy was here playing too but I am sure she was smiling down on the girls & Bosch.

Hugs

Michelle

Today is Sassy’s 5 month Angelversary.  Yesterday we celebrated Snickers & Jasmines 5 month birthday.  Yes, the 2 girls were born a day before my Angel crossed the Bridge.  Kind of bitter sweet but Sally told me that Sassy had picked them out for me.

So looking back at 5 months ago we (Sassy, my mom & I) made the journey to the vet to have our check up for our Metronomics (Leukeran).  I expected to come home with her.  When we went in I knew she was having a little bit of trouble panting but thought it was because she had just been diagnosed with a staph infection in her bladder & started on antibiotics little did I think it was because of the lung mets.  We were told to watch for coughing etc which Sassy never had any of that but the 1st time when we diagnosed the mets. I made the promise to Sassy when we started this journey that I would never let her suffer.  When Dr Boyer came into the room August 20,2013 I knew it was bad.  She looked at Sassy & looked at me.  I won’t forget these words “She isn’t as pink as she usually is”  meaning her tongue & mouth she was not getting enough oxygen.  Dr Boyer then listened to her lungs, chest and said I can’t hear her heart beat.  Which means she had fluid between her lungs & chest cavity & possibly on her lungs.  We were then given a couple of options 1 Surgery to drain the fluid off  or PTS.  The surgery would just have delayed what the decision would have been and made Sassy a little comfortable for a short period of time and the fluid would come back maybe in a week or more or even less.  I looked at Sassy’s smiling face that day and knew that I couldn’t let her suffer another surgery that would just make it worse later.  I chose to let her go.  The hardest decision I ever could make for my baby.  But I know she is healthy & happy where she is and not in pain.  Most of all NO CANCER.  I know I will see her again some day.   I look at her smiling face every day above my computer.  I talk to her all the time so I know she is here.

Sally this last one is for you because I know you love it too