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Three Years as an Angel

Three years ago today I knew it would be a difficult day.  Not because I knew it would be Sassy’s last day but because Karma our good friend had made that final day arrangements for her Baby Brendol.  If you haven’t read about Brendol please do here.    She was a very loving sweet girl.   Karma, me and a bunch of others got to know each other and became good friends in the chat.   I just knew it would be a tough day since we (our family here) was losing a great girl.   zpfile005

I never dreamed that  Brendol and Sassy would meet.  As fate would have it Sassy went to the vet that day as we were having a check up.  I didn’t plan a final day because we didn’t know it would be.  But she was loved none the less.  Sassy and Brendol both crossed the Rainbow Bridge on August 20, 2013.


In our grief Karma & I have become great friends and we both know our girls met at the Bridge and keeping watch over us and our furbabies.


Dear Sassy

Three Years ago you left your physical body to become an Angel.  My life was crushed.  I felt like life would never go on.  That I was just a shell of a person with out you here with me.  That life would never go on.  I cried every night.  Sometimes all day & night.  I didn’t want to work but I forced myself.  I sat in the chat room on Tripawds just watching and crying.  You weren’t there anymore to talk about.  It felt so lonely.  I missed you so much that I didn’t want to go on some days but I knew I had to because of Bosch.  He needed me too.

As I sit here writing this I am crying. Three years have gone by.  I miss your velvet ears even to this day.  I still miss you but I still celebrate you by coming here.  I don’t cry as often once in awhile.  The hurt isn’t a horrible unbearable pain anymore.  It has subsided.  I still miss you though.  Yes, three years has flown by  and yet some days it seems like a life time ago and some days just as it was yesterday.

I know you picked Snickers out and Jasmine too.  They were meant to help heal my heart which it has but you still are there and always will be.  These days are what is hard.  Who knew that 3 years would feel like a life time.  I miss your cuddly face and all the fun stuff we did.  Guide Snickers and I in our journey at a Therapy team (something I wish you & I would have gotten to do because you would have been great at it.)

Make sure to watch over all of our friends up there too and I love you my sweet girl.



Sassy sugar bear costume 09




Love you Sassy & Brendol

9 Responses to “Three Years as an Angel”

  1. zeusysmom says:

    Love never dies. Run free babies!
    Deb, Belle and Angel Zeus

  2. benny55 says:

    Oh Michelle, dear sweet Michelle! Bawling over here!! Geez…..have to come back later……

  3. mom2shelby says:

    HUGS!!!! I know it’s so hard to imagine them gone so long … three years! It doesn’t feel like that. The pain is of course always there but as you told me many times … the intensity fades and you are indeed able to love again. It is through your support and the spirit of Sassy that I was able to see through the tears and learn to open my heart and love again. That gift will always remain with me and Jasper can thank you!!! I know Shelby and Sassy have met up and are the best of friends… how could they not be? Both girls loved to party and wear hats!!!

    Hugs my dear friend …. you are a true gem and a gift to us all!

    Much LOVE!!!
    Alison with spirit shelby in her heart (and little jasper too)

  4. dobemom says:

    What a beautiful tribute to two special girls! You know there is a party to end all parties at the Bridge today! Thank you for all you do for others on this journey, even though it may be difficult for you at times; your selflessness helps so many, myself included. Hugs to you, today and always.

    Paula and Nitro

  5. hester says:

    Sending love up to Sassy and Brendol who were angels on earth before they were angels at the bridge together.

    Hugs to you, Michelle, and Karma.

    Lisa and Pofi dog

  6. jerry says:

    Wow, three years just went by so darn fast Michelle. I know for you and Karma, it probably didn’t. But you have become such an integral part of this community in that time, we are forever grateful that you stayed even though the heartbreak.

    Sassy is an angel but she is never, ever forgotten. She made an impact here and helped you through your grief so you could help others. And help you have. It’s beautiful to see grief turned into love and service to others. Sassy and you are still a team, always will be.

    We love you sweet Sassy and your Momma, Snickers, Jazz and Bosch too. You are the heart of the Tripawds Nation, always. xoxo

  7. linda8115 says:

    Awe holding you and Karma in my heart today. The first banner I saw today was sweet Sassy Sugar Bear. Definitely a sign that she and Brendol are having a glorious day at the bridge. Hugs to you both!

  8. Karma says:

    Miss Michelle,
    You honor my girl and that makes my heart smile and brings tears to my eyes. It’s such a selfless thing to share something so personal as your grief with another. I cherish you. (And you are too hard on yourself 😉 ). Thank you for always keeping Brendol in your memories with Sassy.

    Love you,

  9. benny55 says:

    I remember that day so well, so very well.

    The night before our hearts were with Karma and Brendol as we knew Brendol would be heading to the Bridge the next day. We still hoped for a miracle…still hoped.

    And then as the next day dawned, we were not only sending our beloved bubble popping Brendol to the Bridge, but sweet Sassy unexpectedly joined her! We cried so hard as we shook our heads in disbelief. Two of our shining stars went to the Bridge to become Guardian Angels.

    They also both did a spectacular job of making sure you and Karma had plenty of furbabies (yes, including cats) to help heal your hearts and bring you joy and laughter!

    Your words today are straight from the heart….a heart that still hurts yet a heart that can embrace the wonderful times you and Sassy shared and smile. Words that describe the depth of your love, the depth of your bond, the depth of the connection you two still have

    The pictures….they are all so perfect!!!! Such a beautiful way to remember smiling Brendol and the happy fun loving Sassy! Sassy rolling arpund on ner back, Sassy the Lion, Sassy “owning” HER bed…..too cute!!

    Thank yiu for sharing these great pictures! It’s ALWAYS a treat to see these happy memories. And always remember this, Sassy was ALWAYS HAPPY!!! You gave her that gift!!

    Lots of love to you Michelle! And lots of love to you Karma!

    Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!

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